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It is more than halfway in 2020 and I have to start over in my healing. I had written in an old space which I am choosing to let go because it is full of crap; too much anger, pain, bitterness and disappointments. It served me well and it was hard for me to delete them because I started it in the midst of my divorce. And I grew out of that pain writing anonymously. The writings are not gone. I just placed them into another box and chose to lock it up never to be seen or read again. 

So hi, I am Pei and I am not new to starting over and over again. I pack up, run and go into another space when the old gets a bit too much for me. My inner world is turbulent but I do not show them to the world because I do not want to be at risk of being used for the information I am about to let out. 

For the readers or lurkers who care or merely stumbled upon this, let me share my essence and my timeline;

I am 31 years old. I have a 7 year old son. I am a solo parent divorced in mid 2017. I left my marital home in early 2016 and my life took a major turn in my values, faith, beliefs and even in my traits and personality. Despite all that, I stood the test of time; settled my divorce papers on my own, sold my marital flat, took my Degree in Social Work, went into a toxic relationship, raised my kid with the help of overly concerned parents, built a support network that lasted for 5 years now. In 4 days, I will own a new home solely under my name. To summarise my last 5 exhilarating years would not do justice to the amazing and messy person that I came to be. 

So this is why I am here again writing, figuring out and making attempts to take life in stride again.